Edge of the cliff

The doom's day clock is ticking it's last hours. Time's up. Count down is over. There's no choice left but to sit 2.5 hours through 3 buses, and finally land in my big, huge, yellow painted college tomorrow morning.

Today early morning, I got this text message from my friend. It says today is a 5th Sunday - the 5th Sunday of the month. Well that's a freaking idea of a holiday, extremely rare! But it reminded of a thing said in Aravind Adiga's The White Tiger.. "What a fucking joke". Doesn't it seem like Kal ho na ho? Living today to it's extreme just because tomorrow you're going to hell! Well, back to hell in this case.

Again, it was early morning when I got the message. Exactly it was some time between 7.30 and 8.00 in the morning. Does that count as early morning for you? Now that, my dear people, is the early morning defined by vacation standards. Tomorrow I should be in the first bus by 7.00 in the morning. It simply implies that I should wake up even earlier. Duh! After two goddamn months.


from barackobama.com, yeah!

No matter, I did enjoy the 5th Sunday at it's best. Watched a couple of animation movies, played computer games, and moreover let everyone know it is this special day. :) Tomorrow evening, I will be coming home with a bunch of print-outs and photostats and will have to unwillingly stump myself in front of the table between many records. Everyone(of my classmates) says that they sleep in the various lecture hours. But they only reach near-to sleep. They never sleep. Of course, except some guys who lie dead flat in front of the lecturer as if they don't give a darn about what's going on in the world. Leaving everything aside, what I hate about all my classmates is that their dedication in completing assignments. The lecturer must've given the assignment last week, and there'll be still one more week till it's deadline. Meanwhile I'll be relaxing myself, thinking, imagining, laughing and relaxing more. Then all these excited people totally freaks me out. These people, run around taking photostats of textbooks and already completed assignments(these by some extra-terrestrial breed of people(not et!) whom I don't wanna talk about). Everyone is running. You can't sit and dream. You HAVE TO run. Run with the crowd.
Honestly, I'm tired of this. It seems like we're never gonna stop. Everything that's beautiful is passing us by in moments. I just want to break out of the crowd!! ROAR!


from the movie Into the Wild

Today I was stepping out of my guitar class, marking the end of the vacation-package classes. Now I'll be visiting there only on Sundays. My guitar instructor said "You're doing good. You caught up a really good bunch of lessons within this time". Ohh.. I was so high! May be he's telling the same to every student, to encourage them. May be I actually was doing good. Anyways praise from teachers rarely affect me; myself being the son of two teachers and having true insight on how they manage pupil. :P

A soft love song is playing in my mp3 player. But this one ain't that enjoyable for me right now! No no, I'm not in a love break! I was not even in love, at first place. There's this pretty girl in my music class. Well there are lots of 'em Muahhahahaha :v , but are around age 10 :| . Now this pretty one comes around my age group and we're usual chat friends. And she plays piano :$ . Well, I wasn't flirting, I wasn't particularly taking any effort. Then she says to me how she met another guitar guy in the morning class(I'm in the noon class). He was playing this love song in guitar which is now playing right into my head. And he was doing it SUPERB, in her own words. She explained how she totally stopped playing her own song and started staring at the guy, until our teacher came and snapped her out of the illusion. Aww... guys I hope you can feel it. Even though you're not particularly attracted to a pretty girl, her praising of another guy in your own field for the reason that he is more skilled than you, is not the kind of stuff you want to hear from her! "Umm he's probably been learning guitar for a long time", I concluded. I don't really believe the hypnotized girl listened a bit of my reasoning. (Take it one way, guys!)



God, if he is doing engineering, give him a 2 months vacation every year, when his semester is two-third complete. You know why? - he never cares to study for upcoming exams, and actually becomes a blank paper by the end of vacation! :D
Yeah that's where I am now.. blank.. :e

Lemme go afresh to college now!

A word:
I'm gonna be busy the coming weeks, may be months. I have to refrain myself from being so active over teh internet. Don't worry if you don't see a comment from me under your latest post. I'm watching everything! :D

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Waves, Sand n Sun

In the last post I've been sitting on a seashore bordered with rocks. So there's no playing in the sea! But today I've been to the real seashore. It's the Muzhapilangad beach, which is a famous drive-in beach in the whole of Kerala. And this time I'm not going for any long, long photo quest over the beach!

I had company - my mom, dad and my partner in crime.. sis! There were bikes and cars running in both directions. C'mon.. you can't even run free without fear on such a beautiful beach?! I preferred the sea! It was great walking in it. I just felt like diving down into the water, but left the fun for yet another occasion. I had forgotten even the feeling of the sand flowing away from under the feet when the waves strike in..
I was just so... Happy! :)



Silhouette on Sand : Me n Sis

The pictures taken with my mob cam are too gloomy. I don't want to ruin the beauty of the place with that... hence the greyscale! :)



Walking to the Sun : My sis

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The Salty Winds Revisited - Living the moment

You're just living, man. You're just there, in that moment, in that special place and time

Yeah, I was out to the park again! It was just another day of accumulated works. When I had to go to the town for getting things done, all that I've been actually thinking was about taking a break at the park :) .

Reached there at 4.30 pm. The sea was out there, silent and calm, with a cloudy sky overhead and Mr.Sun on his initial plan to settle down. This wasn't close to the visitor time; the sea-side was rather lonely, with just one or two people around other than myself. I took a long-shot look at the sea.. and then reached upto the farthest rock where I could settle in peace and contemplate the world :D .



This is the first picture I took. I wasn't feeling anything in particular while I caught this snap. But my mind was empty. The winds so quickly take away the pressures. The light blast above the sea is the special effect created with the sun peeping in through the clouds. This gives me a godly feeling every time. The clouds were so dynamic today. They kept on changing shapes and moved around with such excitement.



The clouds were now veiling the sun's light blast effect. I took a wider perspective view of the area in my vision. Now this is all I want to see. And I'm right here, right now. :)



We can't blame the ancient thinkers who believed that the earth was a large bowl, with land surrounded by water.. that if we travel to it's edge, we'll fall down into infinity. Just visualize it! I stared at the edge of the water for a long time. This is the best way to take in the very feeling of the sea.. the infinity it holds, but with a fine edge that we can see even from here..



There were lonely islands scattered over the distance. I always wondered in my childhood that if they were the territorial remnants of the Andaman Nicobar. But they're too far away for that, anyhow :O . It reminded me that I'm lonely out here, just on my own. Well, sometimes it's cool to be alone. The clouds were playing there tricks. look at the above picture.. don't you see a cloud-ring above the sea?! :D



More wonders at the edge.. the sun's reflection has been partially seen over the water.



The light blast occasionally reveals itself among the moving clouds. The sea, clouds and the sun.. everything is perfectly choreographed today!

Now I remembered. Man, I have a mobile in my hand, and it has got some cool music in it(Music ain't owned by i-PODS alone!) . I plugged in some really beautiful instrumental music into my ears. When you have such a beautiful vision in front of your eyes, you just don't need any words.. just a slight feel of music!

Hear the music..

This one is called Beautiful World , and yeah.. in the perfect situations it does make sense! It's a beautiful world out there!

The sea's only gifts are harsh blows, and occasionally the chance to feel strong. Now I don't know much about the sea, but I do know that that's the way it is here. And I also know how important it is in life not necessarily to be strong but to feel strong. To measure yourself at least once.

Only now did I notice that the waves were gaining strength as time passes. They were stronger and bigger. And only now did I take serious look at the clouds. It was just WOW! They were forming every beautiful pattern they could make. They were present in every densities, every shape, blocking out light at some parts and letting light pass through the little gaps.. I haven't seen clouds so beautiful ever before..



I was sitting on the same rock, and I was looking in the same angle. But the picture in front of me was different every moment. Every moment was different. We see movies. There are some moments in them that we really, really love. Moments that we'd love to live in.
Now with these magical clouds, vast sea, the shining sun and soft music, I'll call this creating the moment. Yes, this is exactly the moment you want to live in.. it's out there.. all around us; you just need to open your mind and feel it.

"God, I really consider having a girlfriend now. Are you planning to summon any? If you have someone out there destined in my fate, just make it happen now. I don't want to meet her in the college corridors, neither in the sidewalk.. just bring the person right here, and right at this moment!"



The clouds had a lot of pictures drawn in them. I tried to figure out what they mean. Above is my attempt to make up a smiley face in the clouds. Not good enough I know.. two eyes one curved mouth(may be straight).. try hard! :D




Now this one is much better. I call this The Smiling Cyclops. Don't you see there?! :)





Here's the big picture. Look carefully. Observe the clouds near to the edge of the sea. You can a small circular hole in the cloud mass above the sea, and there's a halo of light rays falling in the sea through this hole. Again, the magic of clouds!



To make it more clear, look at this picture. The sun is closer to sea, and the magical light falling in on the sea is brighter now. You see, it's a small circular area of light in the sea. How would it feel to take a boat and reach right under that light?! I felt like it's just calling me. I was just looking at the sea for all this time, dissolved in it.. and now I don't want to go back. Behind me lies the smoke filled, noise filled city. I'll have to rush through a bus of sweaty people. I'll have to dodge the traffic. There will be no more peace.

Society, man! You know, society! Cause, you know what I don't understand? I don't understand why people, why every fucking person is so bad to each other so fucking often. It doesn't make sense to me. Judgment. Control. All that, the whole spectrum.

The above quote is from the movie Into the wild. It's, again, a movie I loved(haven't seen it 100% yet!). Here a young lad, after his graduation runs away from home and go around the world.. out and free.. I'm really inspired, I just want to get out and be free!! :D


The eternal light spreading out on thee..



I simply wanna be lost somewhere out there.. close to the edge!



Aww.. watch the divine presence!


The Rays of Light effect

It's 5.30 in the watch. I unplugged the earphone. Getting up on that rock, I looked at the sea for once more. "Sorry dear, I can't stay till sunset.."
I turned around. And WHOA! There was a bunch of people crowded in the sea-side along with their families. Kids playing around and parents photographing the sea. My my my.. I must've been totally dissolved.. I never heard a sound!! :)

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The Vacation Situation

It's half past May. There are hardly two weeks for the college re-opening. And it's not a good feeling, I tell ya. All the things you talk about college - friends, bunking, our cool hangouts - crap man, but I don't want to get off the house and travel 4 hours daily to spend lot more hours digging into Partial differentiation and Microprocessor logic! Oh yeah.. I'm being the same ol' kid - the same ol' lazy kid who doesn't want to go to school after two months of freaking vacation! :i

I wonder when vacations started to be boring. May be approximately when we started thinking a little bit seriously about life. Thinking seriously about spending every second of our valuable time.. thinking deeply on gaining more useful skills during our free times.. The fact is that, this vacation, again, in spite of all those great plans, was plain boring :| .


Not completely boring, folks! I did try a bunch of extra curricular activities like inviting friends home, striking into friends' home, breaking into relatives, and taking little trips with myself. Well, and learning guitar :) (The awesome part of it!). Rest of the time was spent in such idle atmosphere.. in front of the computer and over the internet. Blogging is NOT really the sport for spending time(Although it can eat up a whole lot of your time). Blogging comes out of content, out of inspiration and overflowing happy or sad moments. I must be screwing myself up to make up this much posts under these eventless circumstances. Now all that I feel is.. so dried out, no un-motivated, and so speechless and motionless. Give me some life!! :c I've had enough with trying to find entertainment at home in a long two months vacation. Next time around, I'm gonna steal some money outta dad's locker and going for a trip all over India! Sadly, this is probably the last long vacation I'm gonna get in my engineered life :( .

My original plan of spending time at home during vacation was to watch a hell lot of movies. But the idea was forcibly crushed in between a number of constraints. The parents in this area - the north of Kerala - are highly concerned about their children going in the wrong paths(I don't know the situation in the rest of the world..). They sue us to hell if found watching English movies all the time. The worst thing ever to happen is to watch the actors having their true love's kiss, together with your parents staring at the monitor. And every time, the movies work with such great timings! They stay all neat, completely clean.. until the moment your mom walks in glaring at the screen. There you go!
All the movies I tried to watch betrayed me in this sense :( . No special mention about me finally being afraid to watch a Hollywood movie at home. This is what happens when both your parents are teachers. They have vacation when YOU have vacation :( :( .

I even made brave decisions like "I'm gonna convince my mom that what she views in English movies are nothing bad, but just natural for the story they hold". Unfortunately, the movie I selected for this experiment was The sweetest thing. It's all sweet, okey.. except that they showed some lesbian stuff when mom was watching(betrayal, again!). All that intended was joke.. just in front of the very wrong person :~ ! Even the so-called classic Godfather did the same. Plus, it was plain boring to watch the 80's classic! So I added more criteria to my future downloads like clean movie, not very old movie and above all, a good movie! Very hard combination, it proved later.. especially when you are downloading over the internet :( .
Well, here I should also mention some really good movies like Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Beautiful, it is.. and I'm still rewinding it to watch the best parts again and again! :) If you have a lovely heart, you're surely gonna be motivated by this movie. After watching Seven Pounds and this one, I find that the fragmented type movies are really a good feel. Hoping to watch more of them!



Above all, spending time with myself constituted the best part of the vacation. Well this thing I do all the time - staying away from everything and letting the mind free.. Now that I have a whole lot of free time, this thinking time has been coming in overdoses. Many time, I get stuck in my thoughts, not knowing what to do, and in turn doing nothing. This may seem absurd and crazy to all those people reading this in between or after their tiresome work. But dude, you really gotta experience a nothing-to-do bunch of holidays!

On a final note, it's not the vacation spent so far that matters. What matters is the world of exams, records and assignments waiting for me out there within a reach of two weeks :o . My friends, who were in the very same situation, have started calling me asking of vacation-assignments and other college works.. unveiling a new chapter of horror in front of me every time! The big picture is clear now. I'm doomed :( . Take this as my note, before I jump into the dark matter once again! :c

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Lets think Mathematics!

Lets get geeky!
Did you know? - My mom is a maths teacher! Well, it doesn't mean anything like I'm a genius in maths :P . In this vacation the Kerala government is conducting funny courses to the teachers in all subjects to train them the new aspects of revised syllabus. The teachers are actually divided into groups, given assignments, some tricky questions and even homeworks!

Now today.. mom came up with two tricky questions.

Q #1
Take 4 numbers.
The sum of the first two numbers should be double the sum of the other two.
But the product of the first two should be half the product of the other two.

Actually we can find more than one set of such numbers.
Eg: 33 1, 11 6
33+1=34
11+6=17=2 x 34

33 x 1 = 33
11 x 6 = 66 =2 x 33

Got it?!

To solution..
Okey, so we burned our brains on various combinations of numbers, looking out for general properties and all. Not to mention we ended up with nothing more. :(

And then this thought struck me "Why don't I leave it to the computer?"
I wrote a very simple program in Java and amazingly the computer showed me a list of such numbers satisfying the above condition!

Below is the algorithm behind it..

for(a=1;a<=50;a++)
for(b=1;b<=100;b++)
for(p=1;p<=50;p++)
for(q=1;q<=2*p;q++)
if(a+b==2.0*(p+q) && a*b==p*q/2.0)
// Print a,b, c,d

The numbers that we needed(below 100) are..
1 33 , 6 11
1 45 , 18 5
2 60 , 15 16
2 66 , 12 22
2 90 , 36 10
3 91 , 21 26
3 95 , 30 19
3 99 , 33 18

When was I ever gonna find 'em without my computer? After all.. studying Java at school proves a little useful! :O


Q #2
Let us think (a + b) x a x b = 4545
The question is that "Are a and b natural numbers?"

To solution..
This time I left it to the computer with no other option!

The idea was to check all combinations of a and b where I ranged a from 1 to 50, and b from 1 to 200. But none of them gave 4545. So they must be some fractions!! :D

Now I made a program to check fractions in an attempt to find a and b. But I failed in this attempt. So far no such a and b exists :( .

Can you find them??

The algorithm used to find a and b is as follows..

for(a=.01;a<=50;a+=0.001)
for(b=1;b<=200;b+=0.001)
if((a+b)*a*b==4545)
//Print a,b

//Print "Over!"

I really think no such numbers exist!

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Sticky Award

Well, that's not really the name of an award. But as many of you must have already noticed.. there is this sticky award going around in the area these days, going in rounds and reaching back every person at least twice! Yeah this is the award:


Now.. a bunch of thanks to choco for awarding me this one for the first time and then Kadambari too for passing on the award again! :h
The award seemingly has no intention to go out of the scene! I'm really really confused about whom to pass on the award to! Guess all you people who deserve the award has already got it once(or twice!)... Anyway let me choose 3 who hasn't received this award yet. Let me bring some new bloggers to the scene:

Dark Gal: The internet-buddy who so far resonates the most to me! The award for all her dark ideas which I really admire! (And we have some secret plans going on! Tell ya later!!)

Nim: For openly writing about the hardships of engineering! :O

Zenana: The person is on vacation now. Hope she comes back soon and receives her award.. Cheers buddy!

So this time the award goes to these 3 girls. And oh yeah all in my age group. No offense :P .

And dear award, do you have any plan on a rendezvous with me again?!

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Back again!

I had a bad news and I have a good news.


:(
The bad news is that I got food poisoning about 3 days before. It was as a result of the very tasty chicken I bought from my nearby restaurant. Moreover it's a restaurant trusted by people over the ages(and even got featured in some magazine). Now I have a good reason to rumour against them :v . As on a second thought, the food is really tasty there and I'm probably gonna eat again even at the expense of another food poisoning :P .

A fun fact about the illness is that I never went to any doctor, in spite of my mom's desperate efforts to take me to the nearest doc. Happy Mother's Day, mommy :L . Not that my condition was any satisfactory. It was critical, actually :o . And I just didn't feel like going to the doc and say "Hi!". May be because this was not all that diarrhea and crap which usually associates with food poisoning. Rather I was in bed the whole time, lying down subconsciously. After all, I regret not going to the doctor, for my neck hurts real bad now following a very wrong posture of (unconscious) sleep.

Following the sickness...
1) I couldn't stay up for long which continues even now. I haven't read any of my favourite blogs these days. But I'm here now.. and I'll be checking them in a short while :) .
2) Can't stay awake for too late. But now I already have broken that rule and probably I'm gonna suffer a bad day tomorrow :( .
3) I'm bored of life :P .



:)
The good news is that I got a guitar of my own!! And for that reason.. I've been going to guitar classes for the last one month. Haven't really stated that in this blog, I know. I just thought I'll post this when I actually get the guitar in hand! The purchase was done when I was down on bed.. but never mind I got the black guitar of my choice!


Yo!

Any ideas on customizing the guitar are welcome!!

Okey enough for now. My head hurts.. I shouldnt've forgotten the fact that I'm not completely recovered. Bye everyone. Don't non-veg from outside your home - no matter how much safe it seems!

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Get together!

Hello all.. how you doing? I'm finally back after two days! Oh, by the way.. I didn't tell I'm going, did I ?! :D Okey, I've been having a fun stay at my friend Dipi's home together with another pal Jo. All that friends' get-together fun stuff. But it turned out to be more fun than I originally expected. Lets get into the brief details :) . (More snaps yet to come..)

Day 1:
It was in the evening that me and Jo reached Dipi's home. Hence plans for day #1 was much limited. Anyways I should make a special mention about food at Dipi's home. Very very delicious, buddies! During the stay, I consumed much more than the allocated minimum bandwidth of my stomach that by the end of day #2 I was like "Not a bit more.."(And I wasn't really able to get up and walk at times).
All the outing we did during this day was a quick walk around Dipi's place. It's a village, and it's always great to get out and walk in a village. We see a whole lot of open area, that too, containing a lot of serene natural beauty. It was getting dark soon; so there wasn't much sight seeing anyhow.


Dipi has some interesting Japanese stuff at home!

A major entertainment that filled up the remaining time was the magnetic dart board. We three made different set of rules each time and had a tough dart competition going around. I actually got a very clear idea of my sense of direction. Amazingly no items in the shelf adjacent to the dart board was broken by my shots :P . And don't remind me of the left handed dart-throw we had! This kept us going.. till the IPL started.

About half an hour after the IPL started on TV, I moved to the balcony of the house, the other two fixed in front of the idot-box at ground floor. So now it was me alone in the dark balcony, with some music of my choice, rest complete silence and a blank black sky(I didn't really bother spotting the moon in the big picture). It was then I noticed the open view of the road in front of the house-yard. It hasn't been a common sight, since every house in my place has walls and gates totally separating the private areas from each other. Now this was different. The road was going all long in front of the house, and occasionally there was some vehicle passing by.. all adding up to the calm atmosphere. I totally loved the mood, but couldn't take a snap of the moment with my (stupid)mobile cam.



All I missed was my computer and internet because Dipi's monitor is plain dead! I never thought these were becoming really un-avoidable. May be I should limit my time spent on chatting, blogging(and all the related stuff) and random surfing (all in increasing order of time wasted).

Day 2:
There was more than enough sleep in pending for nobody was sleeping last night with all that talking, bitching, serious discussion stuff. But it was no time to rest. There was a tight schedule for the day. After gathering two more dudes from the nearby places, our next destination was Mr.N's home which is not too far. The day was getting hotter and hotter every minute. And that's one thing I really really hate :@ .



Mr.N must be lucky to have his home in that place. It was surrounded by many trees and was somewhat on the riverside. The area is completely shielded against the hot weather outside.. plus there is a natural air cooling system provided by the greenery! The place you really gotta be in, in this burning sun!!
The big deal about the place is a cool river, out open for us to swim and bath! And who wants to miss it?! I was getting into water after a long time. So it was double the fun, and I think the time was not at all enough there! Anyways snaps at the river are strictly prohibited from publishing! :P
Also there was a cuute little baby girl at Mr.N's home! I lovvve babies! :k

Back at Dipi's home, there were more people, more dart play and more harm to objects!! Another special attraction of the place is a full fledged mango tree filled with juicy mangoes.. all for free! :O

In the evening we - me, Jo and Dipi - had a walk to the farm behind the home. We lied down in the green grass, contemplating life :P . I was jealous that Dipi had such refreshing environments right behind his home while I have to travel a 4 kilometers to reach the nearest park from home. I even managed to make stuff out of dried leaves and grass :$ .



Then there was lightning. We had no intention of burning out raw in open field and got back suddenly into the home sweet home.

This time the lightning and rain(yeah! the one word) took off every possibility of electricity on and running. The best part was that we talked a lot during the following hours. It was really the best part. We talked of everything.. from inacting our classmates to sharing every dream. It was nice to realize everyone had their own pretty sweet dreams, to know that there are more things to be done, and to understand how things are to be done together. The whole trip to Dipi's home had a nice climax. I also discovered how much helpful text messaging can be to pass time while watching IPL :P .
I reached back home today morning, and fell dead sleep on my bed. I missed you, dear bed. Missed you computer, muah! It was 1.5 days of pure fun out there, though!! :D

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